Im just lost. Cry Of An Unborn Child by Gabrielle Kruger - Family Friend Poems. A letter to my unborn child - you deserve an explanation We named you to help us grieve for you By anonymous on 19/11/2013 surgical abortion abortion 18 weeks Firstly I need to tell you that me & your daddy have decided to name you. I think about you so often and wish so badly I could turn back time. But then, Im scared that I will have to raise a child by myself. That exact day I started bleeding I went to the ER and they said I might miscarry again I told him and he is convinced I am going to lose the baby. Would the Republican's bill force that teenager to. Luckily I was able to talk to my partner who was incredibly supportive but there were so many reasons for this not being the right time for us. Filed Under: Archive, Blog, Let's Talk Abortion, I had an abortion 10 years ago and I still regret my decision because I was living in the country with out a permit at the time I was considered an iligal imegrant and I was afraid what was gone happen to my baby . My boyfriend told me to abort mine and I dumped him and made that decision on my own. I have a toddler and Im pregnant again. We cant afford this baby. It's just cruel." (Sense my sarcasm, little one.) All other content on this website is Copyright 2006-2023 FFP Inc. All rights reserved. I just remember lying on the table crying my eyes out begging for forgiveness till They put me to sleep . Although I did it for health reasons I am still recovering. Im currently in the exact situation. June 1, 2021 2:30 PM EDT. I swallow hard several times until the pill burrows into the back of my throat like a rock. Rapid thoughts flooded my brain. Only a few days have gone by since I was conceived and I am now growing in your tummy. Its so unfair that guys help in making the baby. I feel like shit because I was raised that this was wrong. I take his hand in mine and say, Everything thats happened the past few weeks doesnt matter anymore. A woman claiming to be pregnant has written an open letter to the "Little Thing" she'll never meet. I dont think Ill ever forgive myself, I dropped out of school and my life is a mess. I feel that too I was once pregnant while I was doing matric 2016 I was confused and lonely because I did not know what to do by that time but I found myself lost then I decided to do abortion sometimes it hunt me to a point where I cant think straight but I had to forgive myself for that because I did the right choice for myself. Im Ill never be sure if I made the right decision, but Im financially incompetent right now. I feel for you. I know I made the right decision but Im feeling really bad and sad right now. Much love:). If anything more of their fault because they shoot the load but were the ones that have to suffer through the pain. No baby should be murdered by its mother. I know I would feel his kicks by now. Im only 21 and Im not financially free. his mom knew, she had taken me to my appointment. To this day I cry in memory of the child that could have been. I regret having the abortion because of many things and I ask hem to have another baby even if my situation was the same but he said he didnt want to have a baby he was hart broken every time he see kids he would say my baby wouldve been her or his age and that kills me inside I cry for so many nights and days I still do. Sophie R. Pregnancy Poems I have a 5 year old and a 1 year old with my husband but prior to that I got pregnant with a guy who I was on and off hanging out with and I decided to do an abortion because I knew he would not be there for me to support me on my decision but to be honest with you I do regret having to abort it. My and my husband have been diagnosed with infertility. I had not long been in a new job that I had wanted and worked hard for. According to Florida's Reducing Fetal and Infant Mortality law, which was implemented last July, abortions are prohibited after 15 weeks of gestation, with a few exceptions, including one that. He is quite a bit older than me and has 2 kids of his own already. I was shocked. My boyfriend stayed with me but after a while he started blaming me and our relationship change . God bless . And just as I had for months prior, I did so with ease, telling myself, What another waste of $15. See, my boobs hurt and were swollen; I was tired; I was hungry. My daughter was only 800g when she was born, stayed in NICU for 3 month. Thank you. My heart is breaking but I cant have another child on my own. All the best xxxx, Hi Owami, your message speaks to me because I was completely alone too. I couldnt relate more to this paragraph you wrote: He told me that if I abort this baby we can plan a life together later he promises. Because I wanted abortion, I took my first baby's life. I dont feel like he was there for me as he should. I want two more children. Just since December is when I noticed I wasnt having my normal periods. And the warmth of the sun on my back. Hi. I felt empty after too, 10 years later and I still have regret. The dad and I literally talked about having another baby one day but we didnt know it would happen so fast. Why cant we have our dreams and a baby? Im so fearful I dont know what to do. It all means the same thing. During that time, I had to learn a lot about our choices were, and I didnt want to scroll past your comment without sharing some of that knowledge. Same with me 7 years. Putting the baby first. Maybe you can relate with "Jess," a young woman who posted her abortion story in 2019 on the Shout Your Abortion website. Anything further than 6 weeks and I could not have possibly stood firm on my decision. I know it sounds irresponsible to have sex with a man that Im not with unprotected. As a minor in highschool who lives with her boyfriend (of 2 years), I had to have a termination back in September after finding out I was pregnant days before the dads birthday (Aug. 28). Love to you and your baby girl. How do you know? I pull out the test and show him the two pink lines. Your dad talks about how hes an alcoholic, out-of-work barista. My pregnancy officially ended this evening and it hurts so bad, I feel so much sadness and loss, but I know my baby would not have had the life they deservedas difficult as it is to process, I know deep down that this was the right descision, this baby deserved so much more than I could give. There are no other words. Not how I thought I would live my life. I have never cried to hard in my life. The worse I got the more my boyfriend managed to show up and take care of me. The place we live doesnt have space for a baby and we are only just building our savings. It always feels unfair that the times I get pregnant, I had to terminate the pregnancy. It would be my second but he has children from a previous marriage. Maybe you feel as if your world has been turned upside-down. I was 5 weeks pregnant. When he parks in front of my school, in front of parents carrying in their babies and small children, I call Planned Parenthood and schedule an abortion for ten days from now. How do you know? I pull out the test and show him the two pink lines. I pray one day my baby will cone back to me. My pregnancy was miserable I was depressed and anxious all the time and often wondered if I made the right choice but the day my son was born I knew I made the right choice. She comes to me in my dreams at least once a week. My younger half sister is also pregnant with a girl which I always thought I would have. It took almost 6 months and I delivered my poor child.. Except I really dont want kids so shell never get the chance to come back to me. Im so confused. Ive always had irregular periods and issues. She wo t talk to anyone as she feels she would be seen as weak. Its almost the same situation. He walks into the front room while I am mid-stand, so thats how I greet him. God has forgiven you and you should try and forgive yourself. Im 22 and I recently went through my 2nd abortion. I wish I could talk to someone who gets it so much :,( also cate I hope your ok and you and your husband sorted things out. I cried so bad in the clinic and during the procedure that I still have nightmares and flashbacks often. I dont know where Im going to go or how Im going to make this work but Im terrified. Im always hunted by guilt almost everyday, same as you Im also working in Nursery school, so I always see kids that reminds of my poor one. Someone please talk and guide me into a direction. Im afraid that in a few years I wont be able to based on my cervical health. I support your decision and Im here no matter what. In the moment I feel I should be appreciative, but for the first time, I feel angry about my body, my choice. Cant, wont someone just tell me what to do?! I want to be able to call you "Mom," and hear you say I'm yours. I feel alone, abandoned & ashamed that I have to make this decision. I saw a tarot reader 2 years ago and they brought him up and told me he forgave me and understood but I will never forgive myself. Did you end up keeping your baby ? I was so lonely and had nobody to talk to, man I really thought I was gonna go crazy when we took the break. Yet, I have an appointment with my Dr on Monday. Your situation is mine. I cant seem to decide on this but I know I have to do it And Ive been crying the past few days because I know I dont want to be separated from my first baby but I cant.. This is my first time reading a story that actually resonates with the bittersweetness if my own experience. The afternoon I found out I was pregnant with you was just like any other day waiting for my period: I was late. I m a thai women but I moved to England to live with my husband , he is 34 years old and weve been together nearly 3 years. Im giving up the pregnancy to focus on my toddler & also to avoid a life of suffering for the new baby You know in your heart what the right decision is. I couldnt face a potential miscarriage, still birth or birth defects and my doctors had no guidance for me and what I was dealing with regarding my health. I dont know if you have lived in regret or relief of your abortion before this moment, or what feelings his opinions have risen out of you now- all I know is what you decided to do with your pregnancy, whether that involved him ten years ago or not, was your decision. Im almost 6 weeks pregnant and although I want this baby, my husband does not. Hes basically ignoring me emotionally but talking to me civil. I havent spoken to my parents yet. I dont know if hes being dramatic or not but he thinks we will lose our home because we are barely making ends meet with one in daycare. Your dad is an alcoholic. At first, he was kind of a jerk, but eventually conceded to drive two hours back to San Francisco even though I had just sent him away that morning. My eyes fixate on her belly, and I sob. I cry also. I was in a a similar position. I have no one I can really talk to about my situation. Children need attention so please think about if youre equipped to care for them on your own as a single parent. I never talked to people about it after. I would do things so differently. Diary of an Unborn Child is the title of an anonymously-written anti-abortion article which was first read on the floor of the New York Senate in 1970. My arms ache for you. I cry. I was 36 yrs old, with a 3.5 yrs old girl who was born premature at week 28. She returns and hands me an envelope. Long story short Im 26 now, engaged to my partner for the last 5 years. Xx, I found out I was pregnant on this day a year ago and like you I was scared. We chose to end our family after two children. She had a support network that would have helped and supported her but being very self sufficient wodnt allow her to acknowledge at the time. No baby should be murdered by its mother. I feel like Im losing either way; if I get an abortion, Ill most likely regret it, and if I dont, Ill struggle as a single mother. ? Since I found out I was pregnant my life has been a living hell my husband immediately voiced we couldnt handle this right now, and though I was emotional about it at first, I knew he was right. I didnt go through with the abortion, I couldnt once seeing my baby but ever since deciding to keep my baby Im still. I go into a patient room for questions and Im told your dad can join me later for the mini-counseling session. And He chose me to teach you about LOVE! I had one 7 years ago and my one and only. Im 9 weeks, and he pretends like it does not exist. I dont want you to go through thisit never does go away. Its so irresponsible of me i know, but i dont want him to feel like Im trying to use this new baby as a way to rekindle our relationship that in reality was not that good. So many of the feelings you described in your post match mine, and as I read, I finally felt something other than alone. Thank you again. My grief has been unbearable the past 5 days since I had the abortion. No baby should be murdered by its mother. I dont know how I got to this point of being so mistreated and lost. But no one talks about it. So heartbroken. Xxx, We are all such incredible and compassionate women. I have an 11 month old and a 13 year old from my husbands first marriage. God chose YOU to be my mommy, Every night I went to bed, I cried. I havent gone one day without thinking of it and causing major heartache, especially as family members and friend have now kids. Raising her was not easy on my own but he convinced me to move back so he can have his family. Im balling my eyes out googling help topics because I miss her so much. Even with his support, the support of my mother, sister, and friends.. A few days later I had a surgical abortion. SUBSCRIBE: $1 for 3 months. I dont want one. My husband and i split up a few months ago but have been seeing eachother on and off during that time. ? Walgreens confirmed on March 2 that it will not distribute abortion pills in numerous statesincluding to some states where abortion is legalafter Republican attorneys general (AG) in 21 states told the company that it risked breaking federal law should it do so, Politico first reported.. Walgreens, the second-largest pharmacy chain in the United States, made the decision after receiving . Im broken over this. Good luck on your decision if you havent made up your mind yet but no matter what, I am sure it will be the best decision for you. I would give anything to have my baby back. I took the pill at 6 weeks. [https://www.coparents.com/sperm-donors/how-to-find-a-free-sperm-donor-online.php]. I had to. Tomorrow I take the pills to expel the tissue. The mother and daughter "were so . more by Gabrielle Kruger. I had a disease that I didnt know about that affected the baby because of my bloodstream. Your state requires that one of your parents be told of your decision 48 hours before your abortion. He had a vasectomy and yet I ended up pregnant again. Its been really hard. I'm speaking. I made the wrong choice. I opted for the surgical procedure because I was told it would be the quickest. Thank you for sharing your story. Now Im thinking an abortion is my only option, I kicked him out last night. No matter how much support one has, it can so easily feel like you are going through it alone. After a further 2 weeks things started to settle down. All these fears at once can seem unsurmountable, but when you help her chip away at each, she'll begin to feel more confident. But the six-week deadline contrasts starkly with early American abortion law, where the procedure was legal until "quickening"the first time a mother feels the baby kick, which can happen . Im so sorry. I would never say that Im over it and my biggest regret is not being careful enough to avoid getting pregnant in the first place. I cried every day leading up to me making a decision, and I set the appointment for the very next day after I decided so that I would not have much time to change my mind. Yet we faced a third pregnancy two years after deciding that our family was complete. Love you lots!!! I PRAY my baby forgives me for being weak And she comes back to me. Ive been employed in my feild for the past 4 years (student hires are highly sought in this feild). . So many people would love to give that little one a home. Im a working fulltime mom Ive always been morally against abortions Ive always advocated against them and here I am having to contemplate one. I knew I wanted to finish school, and with barely making enough to keep the house stocked with I knew I would have to turn to work full time to be able to keep it. I know her from my dreams. For those who may have suffered physical injury due to an abortion, we ask that you contact Operation Rescue at 316-683-6790, or e-mail us your story at info.operationrescue@gmail.com. I said this is the hormones speaking and she did the right thing. People will yawn when they are bored of you. Sometimes I think about taking my life and then I think about my daughter . I found out I was pregnant exactly two years ago this weekend. Im 8-9 weeks pregnant, i have not told him since we are not together although we still engage in sex. The pain in my gut has not gone away. Gabrielle Kruger I couldnt talk to him about keeping it because he would panic and and say it wasnt plausible anytime I showed attachment. I hope to someday get to tell my child face to face that I love them and Im sorry and they deserved better. A heart touching letter from a unborn baby to his mother baby is very happy when he is conceived and think that his mother is world's best mom and he share his happiness with his mother telling her all his activities and growing stages in her tummy but his parents decide to abort this baby.. prayatn Follow Advertisement Advertisement Recommended Listen to your heart, there is no wrong choice. Its not being selfish if you think about it deeper. She felt because of the drugs it was best to have an abortion. It could take several hours for the baby to die, and sometimes the baby didn't die at all and was born . I know the abortion has made me realise how much of an amazing mum I am going to be but I am also so desperate to be a mummy and the loss in my gut cant be put into words. A young woman writes an open letter to the child she is about to abort and posts it online.. I just recently started a new job and I want to progress. Shes only known her boyfriend for 3 months and now they are contemplating a forever type of future together to raise this child. We were in this sad nightmare together, weren't we? I miss my baby every minute of every day. My room mate and best friend had an abortion two days ago. I found out I was pregnant on September 23rd, 2 weeks before my 21st birthday. She gave her baby girl up for adoption, and now that baby is an adult. Gone by The Head and The Heart plays, and I publicly cry at the lyric Gone are the days when the wind would touch my face, gone are the days when youre the wind. I just broke up with my boyfriend 4 days ago after finding out that he has been cheating on me.Deep down I knew that I was pregnant after 20 days late of my periods and my breasts becoming tender.Today I Decided to take the test and found out that Im Pregnant.I lost my mother a year ago and do not have anyone who will support me and the baby financially.It hurts that Weve always had conversations about having a baby one daday,now that it is happening and Im all alone,I feel like a stupid.termination is the only option but I dont even know What to expect.